God I'm So Worried
God, I'm so worried about this baby.
The conception date the nurses gave us after reading the second ultrasound was January 6. The thing is, Az pointed out that I didn't have a period in December, which means the last one I had was in November. Not to mention I still had a slight one January 8. Conception date: Jan 6; last period: November. The first ultrasound said that I was 1month & 5 days pregnant. Well, the people at work said I must be having twins because I looked so big. In other words, I started showing way before I should have. All of these things lead Az and I to strongly believe Joran is older than what the doctor's previously thought.
What if, because of those reasons, I've already started dialating? What if I go into labor soon? What if.....I give birth to him, and regardless of how healthy he is, he ends up dying. I wouldn't want to live if I ever lose Joran.
I can't get comfortable anymore, regardless if I'm sitting, standing or lying down. I'm having so many problems with breathing, and right now, my body needs to take deep breaths, but I just can't. Why? I have no idea. Should I go to the hospital? Should I have them check me for any complications?
God, I don't know what to do.............
The conception date the nurses gave us after reading the second ultrasound was January 6. The thing is, Az pointed out that I didn't have a period in December, which means the last one I had was in November. Not to mention I still had a slight one January 8. Conception date: Jan 6; last period: November. The first ultrasound said that I was 1month & 5 days pregnant. Well, the people at work said I must be having twins because I looked so big. In other words, I started showing way before I should have. All of these things lead Az and I to strongly believe Joran is older than what the doctor's previously thought.
What if, because of those reasons, I've already started dialating? What if I go into labor soon? What if.....I give birth to him, and regardless of how healthy he is, he ends up dying. I wouldn't want to live if I ever lose Joran.
I can't get comfortable anymore, regardless if I'm sitting, standing or lying down. I'm having so many problems with breathing, and right now, my body needs to take deep breaths, but I just can't. Why? I have no idea. Should I go to the hospital? Should I have them check me for any complications?
God, I don't know what to do.............
posted by Heshuutnah at 8:34 PM
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Hey,
I was wondering if you remember me. The last time I saw you was about two years ago after a school play. That is if you are who I think you are.
-Kriegmacher
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