Been Too Long....
As I sit here and type this I realize that it's been far too long since I've been on the net.
I just got done checking my sis & bro's blogs and they've made me realize exactly how long it's been.
*sighs a deep and frustrated sigh*
I think about all the things that have happened over the past year and I can't help but realize how different my life has become in just the past year. *starts ticking major events off on fingers* (1)My ex-b/f came down with mono (in the earlier part of the yr), then started pushing me away. (2)I started spending more time with Vetah because he was leaving in a few months, which only ended up pissing my ex off even more. (3)Billy and I talked about our relationship and I told him I no longer loved him; that he had hurt me worse than ever before and I honestly saw no way of salvaging the relationship. (4)Vetah moved to Arizona then intro'd me to my little sis, Kehn, (via phone) and b/c I started hanging out with her so much, Billy only got angrier with me. (5)I went to college. (6)After months of "living a lie" {staying in a dead relationship and trying to revive what was permanently dead when it just refused to work}, I finally told him it was over, even if it was harsh. (7)I made the stupid-ass mistake of introducing a lying asshole of a "man" to one of my best friends and he royally fucked her over. YES EVERYONE, I MOST DEFINITELY AM TALKING ABOUT THAT IDIOT SEAN. (And if I could, I'd kill the fucker in his sleep for all the shit he's lied about/done to my "family" and myself...) (8)Az actually told me he wanted to date me, thanks to Sean and Meg's "coercion". (9)I agreed to date him. (10)I quit college and permanently moved home around Xmas break. (11)I moved out of my parent's house and in with Az. (12)Az and I decided to start our own family and I became pregnant in January. (13)My grandfather passed away the 5th of this month. (14)Az bought an engagement ring the 13th of this month and finally proposed after months of waiting!!!!!!!!
I just got done checking my sis & bro's blogs and they've made me realize exactly how long it's been.
*sighs a deep and frustrated sigh*
I think about all the things that have happened over the past year and I can't help but realize how different my life has become in just the past year. *starts ticking major events off on fingers* (1)My ex-b/f came down with mono (in the earlier part of the yr), then started pushing me away. (2)I started spending more time with Vetah because he was leaving in a few months, which only ended up pissing my ex off even more. (3)Billy and I talked about our relationship and I told him I no longer loved him; that he had hurt me worse than ever before and I honestly saw no way of salvaging the relationship. (4)Vetah moved to Arizona then intro'd me to my little sis, Kehn, (via phone) and b/c I started hanging out with her so much, Billy only got angrier with me. (5)I went to college. (6)After months of "living a lie" {staying in a dead relationship and trying to revive what was permanently dead when it just refused to work}, I finally told him it was over, even if it was harsh. (7)I made the stupid-ass mistake of introducing a lying asshole of a "man" to one of my best friends and he royally fucked her over. YES EVERYONE, I MOST DEFINITELY AM TALKING ABOUT THAT IDIOT SEAN. (And if I could, I'd kill the fucker in his sleep for all the shit he's lied about/done to my "family" and myself...) (8)Az actually told me he wanted to date me, thanks to Sean and Meg's "coercion". (9)I agreed to date him. (10)I quit college and permanently moved home around Xmas break. (11)I moved out of my parent's house and in with Az. (12)Az and I decided to start our own family and I became pregnant in January. (13)My grandfather passed away the 5th of this month. (14)Az bought an engagement ring the 13th of this month and finally proposed after months of waiting!!!!!!!!
I have come to the conclusion that Fate has brought me to the place in life that I am supposed to be at. I have realized that me breaking up with Billy was the best thing I could have ever done and I'm so much happier for doing so. I'm engaged and will soon be married to the man of my dreams, and I'm even carrying his child. I may not be in college, but as my deceased Grandpa always used to tell me, "I'm doing what's best for me."
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