Not Needed
*Shit. I'm preparing to do one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, take my freedom back from the one I loved the most.*
If you read this, I'm sorry for hurting you, but it's the only way I could make you see how unhappy I really am. Yes, we had a great time Sunday, and yes, I said I thought it could work, but the truth of the matter is that this relationship isn't going to work...and I'm sorry. Hate me if you wish. Never speak to me again. I'll understand. Why would you want to stay with someone after you've devoted your life to making them happy, when they no longer allow you your happiness? To answer the question you asked me when we played risk, my answer is "No." I couldn't. I couldn't be in a relationship where I don't love the person I'm with...
SO TELL ME HOW MUCH YOU HATE ME FOR HURTING YOU. SCREAM IT AT ME IF YOU WANT!!!!!! TELL ME YOU NEVER WANT TO EVER SEE ME AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!
Staying with you when I know how I feel is tearing me apart, but what hurts the worst is your delusion that this relationship CAN and WILL last, and watching you try to hold onto what isn't there anymore because of it. I really do wish I could just wish these feelings away, but I can't dammit. Knowing you exercise the power you have over me is killing me a little every time I talk to you. Every time I come to you knowing EXACTLY what I want concerning "US" and tell you, you always find some way of making me feel guilty about how I feel, whether you realize it or not, and so because of my guilt I continue to let you cage me, but now I just can't take it anymore.
It's time to let me go. Why can't you realize that? All I want is to stop hurting you, but I can't stop hurting you until you let... me... go.
If you read this, I'm sorry for hurting you, but it's the only way I could make you see how unhappy I really am. Yes, we had a great time Sunday, and yes, I said I thought it could work, but the truth of the matter is that this relationship isn't going to work...and I'm sorry. Hate me if you wish. Never speak to me again. I'll understand. Why would you want to stay with someone after you've devoted your life to making them happy, when they no longer allow you your happiness? To answer the question you asked me when we played risk, my answer is "No." I couldn't. I couldn't be in a relationship where I don't love the person I'm with...
SO TELL ME HOW MUCH YOU HATE ME FOR HURTING YOU. SCREAM IT AT ME IF YOU WANT!!!!!! TELL ME YOU NEVER WANT TO EVER SEE ME AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!
Staying with you when I know how I feel is tearing me apart, but what hurts the worst is your delusion that this relationship CAN and WILL last, and watching you try to hold onto what isn't there anymore because of it. I really do wish I could just wish these feelings away, but I can't dammit. Knowing you exercise the power you have over me is killing me a little every time I talk to you. Every time I come to you knowing EXACTLY what I want concerning "US" and tell you, you always find some way of making me feel guilty about how I feel, whether you realize it or not, and so because of my guilt I continue to let you cage me, but now I just can't take it anymore.
It's time to let me go. Why can't you realize that? All I want is to stop hurting you, but I can't stop hurting you until you let... me... go.
posted by Heshuutnah at 1:04 PM
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