How is it that just when it feels like everything in your life is going so shitty, all downhill, destiny throws something so wonderful in your way that it supercedes all else? I can honestly say that for the first time this year my life finally feels like it's going the way it should have been going all along.
I have gone the past 2 1/2 years wondering how my older "sister", Lauren, has been doing, how life had been treating her. I had wondered if I would ever get the chance to see her again, to make amends for what went wrong with our friendship. We've known each other since we were in 8th grade, and even then we had our difficulties, but a bond grew between us, one so strong that it has endured for almost 10 yrs. I lost contact with her about 2 1/2 yrs ago, due to the "religious differences" we had at the time. Over that timeframe, I came to understand how wrong I had been for turning my back on her....for turning my back on what had been a TRUE friendship.
A few months ago, I was informed that she had stopped by my parent's house back in January to try and get in contact with me, but...my parent's didn't have my current number. She gave her cell phone number to Mom in order to give it to me, yet the number somehow "disappeared".
My TRUE sister grew spiritually those years ago, and when she confronted my mom about it, Mom tried to keep us apart.
Well, fate had other plans.
2 Saturdays ago my fiancee's intuition spoke to him. Unbeknownst to either of us, Lauren's did the same thing. We went to the mall, to our favorite entrance and the instant I walked through the door, I stopped dead in my tracks. Despite the way my mom described how Lauren had changed, the instant I saw her I knew EXACTLY who it was. We talked for awhile, I introduced her to my fiancee and vice versa, exchanged numbers, and ever since then, we've been hanging out as much as possible.
On a different note, it's nice to know how some people stab you in the back, saying YOU'RE the one to blame when in reality it's actually THEIRSELF. It's also so nice to see some bitch calling you dick-whipped when they're the one who was in a downhill relationship and let her man walk the hell all over her and not do one....damn.....thing about it, despite the advice that her "sister" gave her.
Yes, dear Kehn, just to clear all doubt, you are the one I'm describing.
It's also nice to see that you say you see just how shitty I'm treating you when I could be saying the same thing about you....BUT I HAVEN'T.
But to satisfy your curiousity, I have a particular philosophy when it comes to friendships: Friendships are 2-sided, not single. A friendship DOES NOT consist of one person trying to manipulate the other, or bribing them just to get them to do what you want, nor does it consist of one person only calling the other solely because they want something, and if things don't go that person's way, they get pissed at every little thing. And my main way of thinking is: if someone else doesn't take the time to call me, why the FUCK should I call them?
And no. You're not the only one I've demonstrated this philosophy on. Vetah got it too. He also got a very rude awakening from it.
Last Thursday I gave you a chance to talk to me, but you didn't say ONE DAMN WORD to me. Then as Jake and I drove off, you had the audacity to say "She didn't even talk to me..."
I warned you you were going to lose my friendship, and I even told you why, but you didn't listen. The dissolvement of this friendship isn't entirely my fault and you can't blame just me for it.
Another philosophy I hold: If I'm not going to put up with Sean's bullshit, then what dumbass idea makes you think I'm going to put up with yours since you're acting so much like him, whether you want to admit it or not?
I don't even know you any more. It's almost like you've become possessed. Nothing of who you used to be remains.
And besides, all you are to me is what Billy was for Jake: nothing more than a placeholder to prepare me for the future lessons I was to learn.
You say you've put up with a lot of shit from other people including me. Well, I've put up with a lot of shit from you, too. A lot of times I felt in the past like all you were doing was using me because I had a car, you were too young to drive, and you had to get the hell out of the apartment because everyone and everything was driving you insane. But I didn't say anything about it because I was desparate for friends, someone to listen to me, someone to talk to because Billy was too centered on himself, not to mention my best friend had just moved 3,000 miles away.
Well, I'm not desparate for friends anymore. And I now have someone who's willing to be my mentor with....no....strings....attached.....
