Overwhelming Void

I sit here, my mind completely blank, feeling like I'm in an emotional and mental void that's swallowing me whole, that won't ever go away. For the past week I've tried to think about things other than the shit that occurred Mon-Wed of last week, yet I can't think of anything at all. That same numbness I've endured before is back, and I feel like everything I've ever loved has just....disappeared, fallen off the face of the earth. I'm back to the point where I'm not feeling hungry 24/7 so I barely ever eat, and I'm annoying both Kehnesh and Vetah to the point where they're now ordering me to eat. (I love you guys...) Aside from that, life keeps flinging shit my way, but the only thing I can do is stand there and laugh. Laugh at the way my life is, laugh at all the mistakes I've made, laugh at all the disappointments I've had, laugh at the depression that is slowly overwhelming me, laugh at the fact that I miss my friends and family so much but I can't even see them. This darkness has slowly been overtaking me for months, but now I'm almost ready to succumb, ready to give in, ready to not feel anything once again......