Intro
First of all, let me introduce myself. My name is Terahna. I'm 20, have blond hair, blue eyes, fair skin, your typical German descendent. I'm about 5'5", 5'6", and I'm taken. Pathetic as it is, I'm currently living with my family. The good news is I move into my college dorm in 22 days.
My life recently took a major turn when my best friend moved out to AZ the end of June, and my relationship with my boyfriend turned sour several months ago, but luckily my little brother was there to help me out. (FYI to all my readers: Lee Towers is my little brother, and I'm the "big sister Sara" he occasionally mentions. For those of you who've never read his blog, go to www.fatestool.blogspot.com .)
Background: I lived the majority of my life as a Christian. I attended a Christian school, went to church twice a week... You get the point. Over the past few years I've come to realize Christianity just isn't "my thing" anymore. I got tired of all the restrictions Christianity put on a person. My beliefs now: There is a higher being watching over us, but it merely observes us, nothing else. We as humanity got where we are today on our own. Without help. All the good things, all the bad things in our society are the results of the choices we as humanity made.
And with that, I leave you.
My life recently took a major turn when my best friend moved out to AZ the end of June, and my relationship with my boyfriend turned sour several months ago, but luckily my little brother was there to help me out. (FYI to all my readers: Lee Towers is my little brother, and I'm the "big sister Sara" he occasionally mentions. For those of you who've never read his blog, go to www.fatestool.blogspot.com .)
Background: I lived the majority of my life as a Christian. I attended a Christian school, went to church twice a week... You get the point. Over the past few years I've come to realize Christianity just isn't "my thing" anymore. I got tired of all the restrictions Christianity put on a person. My beliefs now: There is a higher being watching over us, but it merely observes us, nothing else. We as humanity got where we are today on our own. Without help. All the good things, all the bad things in our society are the results of the choices we as humanity made.
And with that, I leave you.
posted by Heshuutnah at 10:15 PM
3 Comments:
Hey, you once put a comment on my blog about the "Damned if you do, Damned if you don't" quote by E. Roosevelt. Well, thought I'd check your blog out too.
I like your name, mine is Lauren of course. Not to mention thanks for commenting on mine and I think that your living with your family isn't pathetic. But, anyways, I agree with you about what you believe in. I was raised Christian as well and now I'm been reading about Wicca. I believe whatever choices we make now, affects what your future is.
Well, take care and have a good day/night. :)
So your Sara, Lee's sister. It would be nice to talk sometime. I hope you have a great time in college, and keep your head held up, people wonder if you don't.
I don't know why I am doing this but I am. I just want you to know that I truly did love you but now I see that you are not the woman that I once loved. You have changed into someone that I don't recognize anymore. I used to think that when it came down to it that you would always do the right thing but now I see that I was wrong. I want you to know that I cannot ever love you again no matter how many times I said that I would always love you it seems that I was lying to you and to myself. Regardless I feel that there will always be a part of me that will care about you and want what is best for you, that may fade with time as well but it will just have to be seen. I want you to know that I am stronger without you. You may have helped me grow and mature to a point but now I see that these past few years you have actually been holding me back. I am stronger now, wiser and better without you. Perhaps you were right when you said that there is someone out there who is better for me than you ever were but I want you to know that when I was with you I was happy with you and never wanted anything more than what you gave. I thank you for being there for me when I was weak and being weak when I needed to feel strong yet now I don't need either for I know my strength, I know my weakness and I am happy with what I am. I know you hide behind your strength and your facades just as I have in the past and I hope that someday you can come to grips with who you are as I have but I beleive that that journey is a long and dangerous one for you to travel. If there was one last thing I could ask of you, one last request it would be that you don't mess up your chance to be happy and successful. Never lose hope, and never give up striving for what you want. Live but live with purpose and understanding. Never forget that there are those who care about you no matter what. I gave you every gift that I had to give just as you gave me precious parts of you, I will always treasure them for they are as much a part of me now as they are of you. I will not forget but I will not dwell on what has been. Live well, Live strong and Live true.
Kahahndell Bor'une Omonasha Ka'Moshay a'Diadria
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